Some notes on your subconscious thoughts....maybe these questions you can take into account .....

-are there any aspects of yourself you are trying to eliminate or destroy?(killing old habits, maybe?)
- Do you feel you have the inability to make a decision or action?
- It also seems you are trying to protect yourself emotionally .



....I went about this in a different way this time ...this may help you to interperet this yourself :)

-ash